on March 15th, 2017
Genres: Young Adult
I received this book for free from in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.
They say the only way to go from there is up, but what is ÔÇ£upÔÇØ when youÔÇÖre born into someone elseÔÇÖs rock bottom?
At ten, football became my first love. ItÔÇÖs what got me out of the house away from my self-destructive family. My love for football landed me at Las Vegas University with a full ride scholarship, and the orange on my jersey was my favorite colorÔÇªuntil my eyes landed on the red dress Fallyn wore the night we met.
At twenty-one, I jumped off the cliff into the unknown the second Fallyn McIntyre danced in my arms at a party. I had the greatest girl in the world and the opportunity to play college ball every Saturday. My rock bottom was looking up, thanks to my two first loves.
Parties, sex, and footballÔÇölife was perfect. But one drink too many, and my world came crashing down. When I chose pills over my second love, my head told me it was the best decision I ever made. The pills keep me warm and protect me from the distance Fallyn created. Percs donÔÇÖt judge me. They make me feel alive.
They say the best things come in threes, but one leads to a stable future, one is my salvation, and the other drags me to hellÔÇöa hell IÔÇÖd willingly burn in for eternityÔÇªif it werenÔÇÖt for my second love.
Boy oh boy, did this story evoke a rollercoaster of emotions. It’s a great balance of sweet and sometimes gritty circumstances all wrapped up in a story about love and redemption. This is the first I’ve read anything by Marie James and I’m excited there’s a dozen or so books in her library available. James takes a character hitting the bottom of the downward spiral of addiction from the lowest of lows to face the stark reality of what’s lost in the haze of drug abuse. The story takes place over a fives to seven year period and with that we get to see the characters experience many us and downs.
Blaze had me hooked from the beginning, with his arrogant charm in his strong pursuit of Fallyn. He’s a young man who knows himself and has a bright and promising future. But James doesn’t allow the reader to ever relax with what where we think Blaze and Fallyn will end up. Blaze and Fallyn start off rocky and it doesn’t let up. They are impetuous and make choices that the young will make. I also hadn’t expected Fallyn to be so complex. She seems a bit wishy-washy and multiple times I felt frustrated with her, but she’s stronger than she knows and I love that she’s written so honestly. I was a little afraid of where her story may go which caused me a bit if anxiety and kept me glued to the book.
As the story unfolds, and the years pass we are taken through the stages of falling in love and experiencing doubt & heartache. James keeps it feeling all to real and reminds us that being disappointed in the ones we love is very normal. We don’t all learn the lessons we need to , when we should, nor do the lessons always have lasting impact. Blaze takes an unexpected path toward atonement, trying to right the wrongs of his past, and risks his recovery more than once. 4.5 Star read and a story I heartily recommend.
~Review By Cyndi