on March 16th 2016
Genres: Coming of Age, Contemporary Romance
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One phone call changed me.
Three simple words and I was shattered.
So I started over.
And my journey of rediscovery led me straight into his arms.
The stranger who showed me life from a different perspective.
But we both had secretsÔÇª
His would destroy my world.
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You know when you take a chance on a new (or new-to-you author) and youÔÇÖre not quite sure what youÔÇÖll get?┬á Sometimes the risk is well worth the reward. I mean, holy shitake, this book took me by storm, reduced me to tears and then put me back together again.┬á I DID NOT EXPECT THAT.
YouÔÇÖre dropped right into the story and have to fight your way to awareness in the beginning.┬á While this may throw some, it is intentional.┬á DonÔÇÖt give upÔÇªkeep reading.┬á This is how you get to know Aria Benett.┬á She runs, sheÔÇÖs good at running ÔÇô from life, from others, from herself.┬á At the same time, sheÔÇÖs running to try to find herself.┬á ThatÔÇÖs when she meets Chase Porter.┬á SheÔÇÖs not ready to let anyone in, but he sees Aria in a way no one else ever has.┬á This girl has experienced such a level of pain and sadness in her own life.┬á ItÔÇÖs part of why she let parts of herself go and fade away.┬á SheÔÇÖs tried so hard to be someone else, to fulfill expectations which were not hers to fulfill.┬á I canÔÇÖt imagine the burden upon her shoulders, a burden equally self-inflicted and maintained by family.┬á ItÔÇÖs no wonder she cracked.
Chase Porter is truly the exact opposite of Aria.┬á They were fated to meet because there is no other way to describe how well they fit together.┬á Even as another tragedy strikes, there is no denying how they are drawn to each other.┬á They just make senseÔÇªeven when everything else doesnÔÇÖt.┬á He sees life in a way she never could and shares his ÔÇ£eyesÔÇØ so that she might find her way.
ÔÇ£Things sometimes need to fall apart in order for us to put them back togetherÔÇØ ~ Chase Porter
IÔÇÖll admit this review is hard to write because I donÔÇÖt want to chance spoiling it for anyone.┬á ItÔÇÖs an intense read and you have to travel the winding and complicated path with Aria to understand her psyche, why things fell apart, and how they can be put back together.┬á Ava Harrison does an outstanding job with her imagery, showing us the story through AriaÔÇÖs eyes.┬á I will warn you to have some tissues on handÔÇªthere might be some tears to shed and emotional responses (that damn good!).
This book is beautifully tragic, intense, winding, and wonderfully written.┬á IÔÇÖm a fan and I hope you will be, too!
I was a horrible person.
┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á But I had goals, and he didnÔÇÖt fit into them.
I didnÔÇÖt know how to take back the words IÔÇÖd said. They filtered through my brain like a bad dream that I just couldnÔÇÖt awaken from. Just when they started to slowly slip away, they resurfaced. Rooted so deeply in my psyche, there was really no place for them to hide.
┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á If only IÔÇÖd known the ramifications of my actions. If only IÔÇÖd known how my decisions would hurt me beyond repair.
┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á But at the time, I couldnÔÇÖt let him halt my progress. I was so close . . .
┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á ÔÇ£Are you in love with me, Aria? Do you want to be with me?ÔÇØ Parker asked, and my heart completely stopped. I had waited so long to hear those words, for him to see me as more than a friend.
┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á ÔÇ£No. I donÔÇÖt want to be with you,ÔÇØ I replied. Even as the words left my mouth, I knew they were a lie.
┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á I didnÔÇÖt just love him. It was so much more than that. So much more than love. He was my rock, my friend. He was the lifeline that ran through me.
┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á At the time, I thought I had no choice . . . I thought he would be able to see that after everything IÔÇÖd been through I needed to succeed. I needed to make up for the loss of my brother Owen. In the end, though, my decisions were always toxic.
┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á Toxic to him.
Toxic to Owen.
┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á Toxic to everyone.
ÔÇ£No, I donÔÇÖt love you.ÔÇØ
Those were the last words he heard as he turned and walked away.
┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á┬á My heart tightened in my chest as the words replayed over and over again that afternoon. A record skipping that I just couldnÔÇÖt turn off.
Then the phone rang.
Three words were uttered.
Three words that changed my life.
The phone slipped from my trembling hand, and I dropped to the floor.
I couldnÔÇÖt swallow. I couldnÔÇÖt scream.
Cemented in place.
My shoulders curled in, and I clutched my stomach through dry heaves.
IÔÇÖd lost my soul mate, and now IÔÇÖd lost my future.
Everything IÔÇÖd worked for crumbled, and it all no longer mattered.