Genres: Contemporary Romance
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This is not your typical happily ever after...
Lauren Brooks wants to do three things: Escape the small town she grew up in, get accepted to her dream school in Chicago, and graduate without drowning in debt. Now sheÔÇÖs working her ass off to do just that.
With a full course load and a waitressing job at one of the hottest night clubs in Chicago, she does not have time for distractions;namely ones who only want to get into her pants. SheÔÇÖs been burned before. Only a fool goes for a second round... With just two semesters left until graduation, everythingÔÇÖs on track.
Until she meets Cal. Enter distraction.
At six-foot-two, with ebony hair, deep grey eyes, and a smile that could only hide an agenda, she knows heÔÇÖs trouble. And for the first time in her life, a little trouble might be just what she needs. No. What she wants.
It isn't like sheÔÇÖd ever marry the guy.Until she does. What she thinks will be her happily ever after, is only the beginning. Cal has a secret. One that makes loving him come with a price, and being his wife cost more than she bargained for.
A crash of thunder snaps me out of the trance IÔÇÖm falling into. I disentangle myself from his embrace and walk towards the window, watching the raindrops paint the city. He comes to stand beside me. I donÔÇÖt look at him, but I know heÔÇÖs watching me.
ÔÇ£I didnÔÇÖt mean to make you uncomfortable,ÔÇØ he says quietly.
ÔÇ£YouÔÇÖre not. ItÔÇÖs, itÔÇÖs justÔÇöthis is allÔÇª IÔÇÖm not used to this,ÔÇØ I admit stumbling over my speech.
ÔÇ£I donÔÇÖt want you to do anything you donÔÇÖt want to do tonight. As hard as it is,ÔÇØ he lets out a long sigh and laughs.
ÔÇ£IÔÇÖll keep my hands to myself the rest of the night,ÔÇØ he smiles innocently, crossing his arms over his chest and deliberately tucking his hands under his muscular arms. The thing isÔÇöI donÔÇÖt want him to keep his hands to himself. I want them all over me and itÔÇÖs terrifying. IÔÇÖve never wanted someone so bad in my life, and itÔÇÖs overwhelming.
ÔÇ£Do you do this? I mean seriously, is this just a routine for you?ÔÇØ I ask him, my heart in my throat. IÔÇÖm afraid to hear the answer.
He looks at me, surprised. ÔÇ£Well, IÔÇÖm not going to lie and tell you IÔÇÖm a saint. IÔÇÖm far from it. I love women and IÔÇÖve never had to work too hard to get one,ÔÇØ he says bluntly. I cross my arms as well. I think somewhere inside of me IÔÇÖm jealous, imagining all of the women who have stood in this same spot, who have walked through his door and been in his bed.
ÔÇ£But, youÔÇÖre the first woman IÔÇÖve been with that I can honestly say if you left here tonight without letting me see whatÔÇÖs under your dress, I would still call you,ÔÇØ he says with a slight chuckle and IÔÇÖm appalled. What a douche-bag thing to say!
ÔÇ£ItÔÇÖs time for me to go home,ÔÇØ I say irritated. Definitely time for me to go. I turn to walk away, but he grabs my hand.
ÔÇ£Wait! That came out wrong. IÔÇÖm sorry. IÔÇÖm not used to having to explain myself to anyone,ÔÇØ he says. He runs his fingers through his dark locks and chuckles nervously.
ÔÇ£I like you! I love┬ábeing┬áwith women. But I usually donÔÇÖt┬álike┬ábeing with them if that makes sense,ÔÇØ he tries to explain and he seems a little confused. ItÔÇÖs the first un-cool moment heÔÇÖs had and for the first time tonight I notice flecks of green glimmering in his gray eyes; they twinkle at me.
ÔÇ£You seem like the type of guy that doesnÔÇÖt think beyond the night. IÔÇÖm not like that,ÔÇØ I tell him.
He steps towards me and the familiar heat rushes between us.
ÔÇ£Well, I see you past tonight,ÔÇØ he says cupping the side of my face; I lean into his hand and close my eyes. I donÔÇÖt know what to do. My mind is telling me to leave at this point, to leave right now. My body is begging me to stay and let him do whatever he wants to it. My heart is lonely; IÔÇÖve been alone for so long. Even with Michael, something was missing, and I know this pull he has over me has to be lust, but thereÔÇÖs something else. If it was just lust I wouldnÔÇÖt be so afraid, right?
I turn away from him, back towards the window, trying to collect my thoughtsÔÇömy wants versus my fears.
ÔÇ£What do you want from me?ÔÇØ Who am I kidding? I know exactly what he wants.
ÔÇ£I want you to tell me what you want,ÔÇØ he whispers and second later his lips have found the secret spot on my neck that sends a thrill over me.
ÔÇ£What if I donÔÇÖt know what I want?ÔÇØ My voice goes up an entire octave.
He turns me around so weÔÇÖre facing each other now. He leans down, pulling me into a breathless kiss. I have to wrap my arms around him tighter to keep from losing my balance. I softly whimper as his tongue begins to explore my mouth, and he begins to slowly unzip my dress almost as if he’s waiting for me to stop him. When I don’t, his hand slides beneath the thin material; the heat of his hand seems foreign but amazing.
Opening my eyes, the room is spinning but my focus is on him. Each movement in rhythm, every kiss, every touchÔÇöhe shouldnÔÇÖt be able to make me feel like this; itÔÇÖs almost like he can read my mind.
ÔÇ£I want to be the one to show you things youÔÇÖve never seen,ÔÇØ he whispers in my ear as he unhooks my bra. ÔÇ£Make you feel things youÔÇÖve never felt,ÔÇØ his voice pours into my ear as his hand slides up my thigh.
ÔÇ£Just let me,ÔÇØ he says, picking me up. The strap of my dress slides down my shoulder.
ÔÇ£And what do I have to do?ÔÇØ I whimper out completely under his spell. He lifts me higher so IÔÇÖm looking into his eyes, and brings his mouth to my ear.
There are so many reasons I should say no: I barely know him, weÔÇÖve only been out twice.
ÔÇ£Yes,ÔÇØ I say, breathless.
About the Author
IÔÇÖm obsessed with blowing kisses. I guess that makes me a romantic. I love books and cute boys and reading about cute boys in books.IÔÇÖm infatuated with the glamour girls of the past: Audrey,Dorthy,Marilyn,Elizabeth.
IÔÇÖm a self confessed girly girl,book nerd,food enthusiast, and comic book fan. Odd combination huh, you have no ideaÔÇª